My Little Miracle

When Chris and I got married everyone told us to give it a year or so before trying to have a baby, but we both felt that we should not postpone the adventure of parenthood. It just wasn't right for us. Well six and a half years, a few miscarriages, and an ectopic rupture later, we were finally blessed with the joy of being parents to a beautiful daughter.

After my ectopic rupture that nearly killed me in May of 2003, I did not get pregnant again until Sept. of 2005. Then that November after doing everything I could to stay pregnant, I had a miscarriage. I was completely devastated. I began to doubt that I would ever have the opportunity to have children. When I would express my feelings to my Heavenly Father, I would get a calm reassurance that I was not to worry, because I would be pregnant in May. I wanted to believe that but I doubted myself and my ability to receive direction. Amazingly though that next May, I found out I was pregnant!

I had a really tough pregnancy. Contractions started almost immediately and I was on Tributaline to help stop them from 16 weeks, and was suppose to be on bed rest but I was still working. Shortly after I quit my job though, I started having problems with Pre-eclampcia so then I was on complete bed rest for the rest of my pregnancy. Toward the end, I was having hard labor contractions for two solid weeks. My doctor kept sending me to the hospital only to have them send me away because I just would not progress, ugh! Even after my water broke, I would not progress! My little girl was exhausted from the weeks worth of contractions. Her heart rate dropped right after they checked me in, then her heart rate was elevated (under distress) for hours, but the nurses never called my doctor. That evening he just had a feeling to come in a check on me. Right after he got there, Brenna's heart rate went from the 190's down to 18 beats. Chris fell apart; it was terrifying. They rushed me back for an emergency C-section. I was scared to death, but I kept telling myself to have faith and just focus on hearing my daughters first cry.

The nurse asked Chris if he wanted to watch them pull her out, but he was too afraid that the doc. would pull out a still born. The nurse was wise though, and grabbed him by the collar of the shirt and pulled him up to see her. Then she began to cry, and it was truly the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. She had a very sweet, precious cry. I hope I never forget what it sounded like or how she looked when they brought her from behind the curtain so I could see her for the first time. She was truly a miracle.

My brother Dustin always called her a sweet little miracle baby and she really is. She is my miracle... well... and her dad's too, haha! She fills every moment of every day with so much love, laughter, and pure joy. I am grateful everyday for the joys and blessings of being a mother to my little miracle baby! I love her with all my heart. She was definitely worth the wait!

This was Brenna in her outfit to come home in. It was a newborn but it still swallowed her up! It was raining when we brought her home and we didn't actually get home until after 9pm but I was not staying in that hospital one more night!

Brenna's first sponge bath at home (ignore the ugly fat lady in the background, haha!)

She was so tiny! Oh how I miss those days of snuggling with her in the glider, and that sweet newborn smell!

This is Brenna up at my mom's (Mimmie's). She was having fun trying to feed herself in Nanna's (my sis Angela's) old high chair!

This was taken a couple of weeks ago. We wheeled the high chair into the office and let her paint while I helped Chris work on his final project for school. "How big is Brenna.... Sooo Big!"

Ahhh... thanks for bearing with me as I took a stroll down memory lane. There were other pics I wanted to post but I am having trouble with the computer, oh well!

Anyway, I am so grateful for my miracle girl. I hope there is never a day or even a moment for her to doubt how much we love her and what a joy she brings into our lives!