I am very blessed! I have an amazing husband who is also my best friend and my equal partner in every way. I have a beautiful, sweet, intelligent, and loving daughter who is an absolute blast to raise! I still can't believe Heavenly Father trusted me with her! She is just so very special.
As blessed as I am, I still would love to have more children. Most of the time I stay pretty positive. I try very hard not to let the struggle with infertility bring me down. What good would that do anyway, right?
But some days are just harder than others.
I took a pregnancy test this morning, fairly confident that there would be two lines in the box, but I was let down. Again. I hate it when I get my hopes up!
Then again, I never want to loose hope either.
A friend of mine and I talked yesterday and she told me about 3 women she met at a baby shower recently. Each of these women had been trying to have a baby for some time. One woman had been trying for 11 years! All of them tried this natural supplement called Maca Root and nothing else. All of them are pregnant! The woman who had been trying for 11 years got pregnant in 3 months! Another woman who had been trying for 2 years got pregnant in 1 month!!!
I have no idea if it will work for me or not, but I am excited and anxious to try it! We want another baby so bad! I hope Chris will not be upset with me for sharing this but...
The other day, he was playing baby dolls with Brenna and she wanted him to sing the baby to sleep. He cradled the doll and sang to it a song he used to sing to Brenna and just started bawling. He realized then, he had been lying to himself at just how much he wants another child.
I hope to be worthy of another baby to come into my family really soon, but I also hope to been patient and long-suffering in accepting the Lords will and the Lords time.
On a side note: If you or anyone you know is struggling with infertility, please pass on the information on Maca Root. I have no personal testament to give yet, but it is worth a try or at least the time to look into it! Good luck! :)
7 comments:
Oh Danielle, this breaks my heart. You are the best mama ever. Brenna is so precious, and it is evident how much you and Chris love her. She is so darn funny, too! I love reading all your crazy posts about some ridiculous thing she said or did. I know God will have his will in your life. I love you guys so much!!
oh Danielle, I think that is so sweet for chris to get emotional about it, he shouldn't be embarrased at all. You two are more than worthy to have children, but we never know why things happen the way they do sometimes.Just keep the faith. Your post makes me feel very guilty cause I have all these children that I am so greatful for, but feel sometimes I take them for granted because I had so many so fast, life just gets crazy. I hope that makes sense, your a great person Danielle, keep it up :)
Hey Ladies! I am so sorry!!! I didn't mean to sound all poor me, I promise! I really am good. It takes its toll on me sometimes, but I really do have so much to be grateful for! I know the Lord has his hand in my life and the lives of my family and when the time is right another sweet spirit will bless our home!
And Brandi you most certainly should NOT feel guilty in any way for having a beautiful family, nor should you feel bad for getting overwhelmed sometimes. We all have our own individual trials and challenges. Having several kids close together and trying to be a good mother, which you are amazing, and trying to hold it all together, that in itself is a challenge and trial. I only have one and I get overwhelmed and take things for granted! Being a mom is hard, but it is also the most amazing blessing, as you well know! You have such a beautiful family and your kids are amazing! You are like the moms of Heleman's army, raising precious youngsters into valiant follower of Christ!
Thank you both for your kinds words and thoughts and prayers. I love you too Whit! You are an amazing woman and I am so grateful for you! :)
Danielle...you for sure are allowed to feel this way. Only those who have struggled with it can understand! It took us 3 1/2 years to have our 2nd and it was frustrating...you go through SOOOO many different emotions. All I can say is that I love you and you will be in my thoughts and prayers!! You and Chris are both amazing!!!...DON'T EVER FORGET THAT!!!
I admire you so much! You are such a good person, and a good mom and wife! Your post got me all teary eyed. The Lord has interesting timing sometimes, but I don't know why he wouldn't bless you with another child.
I really hope that Maca Root helps! I don't know how you handle the ups and downs (getting your hopes up) of infertility- it just breaks my heart. You deserve all the best! You have such a great attitude! Keep it up. I'll be praying for you. :)
My heart aches for you and Kristal! You have every right to feel as you do! It doesn't make you any less of a person.
You have such an awesome husband and precious daughter. I pray the Lord will grant your desires. He does love you and knows your heart. I have gotten to know you through Kristal and know that you are an amazing mom.
Thank you for your kind words, this has been such a whirlwind but an awesome adventure! Love you:)
I can't really put my thoughts into coherant words but I know you know what I know about all of this...ya know? It just plain sucks eggs!!! The only thing I can think of when all of it comes crashing down is that at least I do have 2 cute kids. The infertility battle was harder when I didn't have any and was trying for at least one. Don't you think? You're right, some days are just harder than others. Yesterday was my due date for my last miscarraige and it just kind of made me a little more melancholy for the day. I really hope this maca root will help you. I'll keep you in my prayers. Love ya girlfriend!
Post a Comment